A Letter Never Sent

I was running the other day and heard this song. I wanted to send it to someone because the lyrics were exactly what I was feeling, but I didn't want what I could see being any number of bad reactions to it.

So the letter, or text, was never sent:

Blink 182 - "Here's your letter"

Cut the skin to the bone
Fall asleep all alone
Hear your voice in the dark
Lose myself in your mind
Choke my voice Say goodnight
as the world falls apart
Fuck I can't let this kill me, let go
I need some more time to fix this

Here's a letter for you
But the words get confused
And the conversation dies
Apologize for the past
Talk some shit take it back
Are we cursed to this life

Fuck I can't let this kill me, let go
I need some more time to fix this problem
I need some more time to fix this problem
I need some more time to fix this

I'm talking to the ceiling
My life just lost all meaning
Do one thing for me tonight
I'm dying in this silence

The last star left in heaven
Is falling down to earth and
Do you still feel the same way
Do you still feel the same way

Fuck I can't let this kill me, let go
I need some more time to fix this problem
I need some more time to fix this problem
I need some more time to fix this

Stuck in my head

I get carried away, carried away, from you
When I'm open and afraid
Cause I'm sorry, sorry 'bout that
Sorry 'bout things that I've said
Always let it get to my head

 Wake up in the morning, wake up in the evening
Wake up when you want to
'Cause no one's really watching
Wish you had something to say about it
But we all have problems
We're all having problems
And we all got something to say

Passion Pit "Carried Away"

I think this is stuck in my head because of the catchy-ness and it applies to conversations that I've had with people and relationships. I feel like I want to help my friends solve their problems, but really they they need to work it out for themselves. Who is to say my opinion or what I think is better or more informed than theirs. If I try to help, who is to say they will even listen?

she's on my mind

"I got dosed by you and closer than most to you, what am I supposed to do, take it away I never had it anyway, take it away and everything will be ok"  -- Red Hot Chili Peppers "Dosed"

"she'll tear a hole in you the one you can't repair, I still love her I don't even care" -- Lumineers "Stubborn Love"

U2

Fast Cars

all i want is a picture of you
all i want is to get right next to you
all i want is your face in a locket
picture in my pocket
i take a pill to stop it

i know these fast cars
will do me no good

i'm going no where
where am i,it is alot of fun
they're in the desert to dismantle an atomic bomb
i watch them channel hop
check the stocks
i'm in detox
i want the lot of what you've got
if what you've got can make this stop

all i want is a picture of you
all i want is to get right next to you
all i want is your face in a locket
picture in my pocket
i take a pill to stop it

i know these fast cars
will do me no good

Dont you worry about your mind
Dont you worry about your mind
Dont you worry about your mind
Dont you worry about your mind

You should worry about the day
that the pain it goes away
you know i miss mine sometimes

There is fiction
that will truly fit the situation
i'm documenting every detail
every conversation


Crumbs from Your Table

From the brightest star
Comes the blackest hole
You had so much to offer
Why did you offer your soul?
I was there for you baby
When you needed my help
Would you deny for others
What you demand for yourself?

Cool down mama, cool off
Cool down mama, cool off

You speak of signs and wonders
I need something other
I would believe if I was able
But I'm waiting on the crumbs from your table

You were pretty as a picture
It was all there to see
Then your face caught up with your psychology
With a mouth full of teeth
You ate all your friends
And you broke every heart thinking every heart mends

You speak of signs and wonders
But I need something other
I would believe if I was able
But I'm waiting on the crumbs from your table

Where you live should not decide
Whether you live or whether you die
Three to a bed
Sister Ann, she said
Dignity passes by (All our hearts)

The Killers

Smile Like You Mean It

Save some face you know you've only got one,
Change your ways... while your young,
Boy! One day you'll be a man,
Girl... he'll help you understand,
Smile like you mean it...
Smile like you mean it...

All Theses Things I've Done

When there's nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
One more son
If you can hold on
If you can hold on, hold on
I wanna stand up, I wanna let go
You know, you know - no you don't, you don't
I wanna shine on in the hearts of men
I want a meaning from the back of my broken hand

Another head aches, another heart breaks
I am so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection,

On Top
But I've been down across a road or two,
But now I've found the velvet sun,
That shines on me and you,

It's like a cigarette in the mouth
Or a handshake in the doorway
I look at you and smile because I'm fine

Change Your Mind
Racey days
Help me through the hopeless haze
But my oh my
Tragic eyes
I can't even recognize myself behind
So if the answer is no
Can I change your mind

Out again, a siren screams at half past ten
And you won't let go
While I ignore, that we both felt like this
Before it starts to show
So if I had a chance
Would you let me know

Why aren't you shaking
Step back in time
Graciously taken
Oh you're too kind

Midnight Show
If you can keep a secret
I got a blanket in the back seat of my mind
And a little place that sits beneath the sky
She turned her face to speak
But no-one heard her cry
Drive faster, boy
Drive faster, boy

I know there's a hope
There's too many people trying to help me cope
You got a real short skirt
I wanna look up, look up, look up, yeah yeah

We were just in time
Let me take a little more off your mind
There's something in my head
Somewhere in the back said
We were just a good thing
We were such a good thing

Make it go away without a word
But promise me you'll stay
And fix these things I've hurt
Oh make it go away!

Sticks in your mind

"Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leafs a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay. " - Robert Frost

"nothing gold can stay" - Pony Boy, Outsiders

"Stay gold PonyBoy, Stay gold" - Johnny

Being a refugee

Season change mad things rearrange
But it all stays the same like the love doctor strange
I'm tame like the rapper get red like a snapper, when they do that
Got your whole block saying true dat
If only they knew that, it was you who was irregular
Sold your soul for some secular muzac that's whack
Plus you use that, loop, over and over
Claiming that you got a new style, your attempts are futile, oooh child
Your puerile, brain waves are sterile...

And I back this with deuteronomy or leviticus
God made this word, you can't get with this
Sweet like licorice, dangerous like syphillis, yeah...

Cause the whole world's out a order
So at night the feins dance on grease with john travolta
One got slaughtered as he caught blood from his mouth
The other tried to duck and caught a left with my guinness stout
Brother, brother can't you get this through your head
This is a setup by the feds, their scoping us with their infrareds...
--How Many Mics? Fugees

It was me, Jesus Christ and Haile Selassie
Selassie said greetings in the name of the most high,
Jah Rhastafari, Christ, took a sip of the Amaretto,
Passed it down the table said today I'll be betrayed by one you 12 disciples
Give me a clue who could do this to you?
The kid on the block who makes less money than you.
Crooked cops pulled up, they offered him 30 pieces of silver
All he got to do is deliver the savior
Right on Bergen St. from bad luck to good luck
My cup runneth over, pass it down, guzzle up
The time has arrived, the prophecy will manifest
I saw death, I got scared, butterflies on my chest
Father if possible, pass this cup before me,
But it's too late I chose my destiny in Gethsemane.
--Manifest Fugees